Kapws eteroxronismena exw na dhlwsw pws eimaste polu mprosta re gmt. Exoume ksefugei milia makrua apo ta prosfata mas xronia. Eidika kapoioi pou xoun megalwsei me gallika kai piana exoun petaksei ki exoun ftasei sto apeiro. Xtuphse h dianohsh tous tavani. Ela omws pou emena mou ka8etai sto mualo san eikona (kai me periorizei dianohtika), pws o kosmos olwn mas tremei. Ekei pou eisai sto kanapedaki sou dear oun Sezon nte Enpherrrrr kai diavazeis ton agnwsto alla diolou ashmanto Oscar kai sou skasei o panw orofos sthn kefala logw seismou 9 rixter mhn thn dexteis thn voh8eia. Gine poio altrouisths/ria esu kai skepsou apo prin mh tuxon kai dagwseis to xeri tou voh8ou sou.
Epishs apo pou ki ws pou einai kako na ais8anomaste omorfa me ton eauto mas voh8wntas osous to xreiazontai?? Eimaste egwpa8eis (endexomenws apo th mera pou genniomaste) alla auto mono san paradoxh exei aksia kai san vash gia na kinh8oume. Eimaste egwpa8hs ti wraia ti kala twra mporoume na vgoume na paiksoume??, O egwismos milaei kai leei polla ena ap’auta einai kai to oti 8elw na einai oi gurw mou kala gia na eimai ki egw. Pou’nai to kako? An o Freud exei dikio tote to pio pi8ano einai oti otan voh8ame kapoion exoume sto pisw meros tou egefalou mas krufh epi8umia na ton g.….me alla leei se kanenan kati auto? Se real time vrwmizei me kapooion tropo thn idia th xeironomia?? De nomizw
Otan vlepeis kati pou se kaiei giati sumpasxeis kai giati ais8anesai oikeia kai sou einai gnwrimh katastash kai kai kai….. tote alh8eia fantazomai den uparxei allh lush kai dieksodos ap’to na voh8hseis. Vevaia auto akrivws, pws na ais8an8eis oikeia me laous kai katastaseis pou exeis ksexasei na moiazeis? Otan eisai eksw apo to xoro polla tragoudia les (e, file/h mou Sezon? Fwnara se kovw) ki eidika otan eisai kleismenos sto kastro sou kai trelenesai me thn dialektikh akoma xeirotera. Ola ta alla emena mou kanoun leipsa kai anakrivh mias kai pote den mporoume na mpoume sto kefali kapoiou kai na doume ti exei mesa, (oute kai sto diko mas kala kala) den mporoume na eimaste sigouroi oute gia tis apanthseis pou 8a dextoume oute kai gia ta kinhtra pou 8a antilhf8oume oti vriskontai apo pisw oute kai gia tis antidraseis. Mono thn energeia mas exoume kai xilious duo dromous na thn dioxeteusoume. Mporei na mhn eimaste oti akoume h oti trwme alla pi8anotata eimaste oti “perpatame”.
Ksekinhse to 8ema kai oi perissoteroi kat’eu8eian milhsan gia thn anwterothta les kai mono mesa ap’auto mporeis na katapiasteis me thn an8rwpia sou (h kai filan8rwpia polles oi lekseis ena to antikeimeno). Alla mallon opoios exei th muga.....(kai den 8elw na prosvalw kanenan mias ki emena ekei prwta phge to mualo mou) Den kseroume pleon pws n’aggizoume re gmt ki akoma xeirotera den kseroume pws na afhsoume na mas aggiksoun. Den aporw ka8olou me ta pagera stulakia kai tis eksupnades afou o monadikos tropos antidrashs ston sunais8hmatismo mas einai h apokoph. Ennoeite oti den exei er8ei ouranokatevato ki auto opote den einai na parekshgeis kanenan. Paidia ths dushs eimaste ki emeis. Telospantwn.
Epishs h8ela na pw pws to na dwseis ena euro ston zhtiano h sto zaki den shmainei oti ton lupasai, mporei polu apla na tou to dineis giati sou to zhthse kai den exei kai kamia aksia gia’sena h giati ap’thn allh goustareis na enisxuseis thn epilogh ths zwhs tou. Etsi kai me tis filan8rwpies einai ews kai sigouro oti polus kosmos ksefeugei ths formas tou exw=dinw=fainomai kai mpainei se poio prwsopikes skepseis (xwris auto na eksupakouei zamploutous).
Ki ena teleutaio,to oti 8a gurisei to stoma pou taises kai 8a sou dagwsei to xeri einai kati pou afenos exei polla na sou pei kai prepei opwsdhpote na kaloskefteis kai afeterou to shmantiko einai oti se dagwnei giati pleon mporei. Opws ki esu exeis dagwsei kai meta filhsei kai meta ksanadagwsei tetoia xeria ki ola auta giati mporeis (kai palh kala dhladh) etsi ki auto, tou dinette h eukairia kai antidra. Alla prepei na uparksei drash gia na uparksei antidrash.
Auta kai sorry pragmatika gia to mege8os apla eixa psiloskasei toso kairo pou evlepa to 8ema kai den to metefere kaneis sthn dikh tou aulh.